Again

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Had yet another nervous breakdown today. Partly because i'm simply exhausted, and "crying tired", as it were; but partly because i'm over-sensitive to things. People keep on berating me for this ludicrous level of sensitivity; but believe me, i've been this way all my life, and ongoing attempts by myself to not take things so personally have failed. Indeed, it's merely continued to create a big ball of hurt inside me; and when, conversely, i stand up for my feelings, it merely annoys and/or angers people and isolates me further.

So i don't know what i'm going to do. All i know is that i'm not going to stop caring about how people treat each other - i'm not even sure i can stop caring - simply to make my life more comfortable. i just have to keep on hoping there's another alternative.