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[flexibeast]

For a while now, i've known that achieving what i want to achieve with Pleasure Activism Australia requires certain things of me:

• The need for me to be an extrovert;


• Related to this, the need for me to be good at social networking, and to be willing to engage in it constantly, and without shame;


• Similarly, the need for me to be good at behind-the-scenes politicking, and to be willing to willing to engage in it constantly, and without shame;


• The need for me to be regarded as sexy/attractive/desireable by a wide range of people.

This list is based on extensive observation of various people and groups, and their behaviours and dynamics.

Unfortunately, i simply can't meet any of the requirements on the list. i used to be bitter and resentful about this - but not anymore. i do still think that it's ludicrous that in our society, ideas tend to be judged less on their own merits than on the physical and behavioural characteristics of those promoting them - but that's how it is. Whinging about it isn't going to change it (to change it, i'd need to meet the requirements list! :-P ). And continuing to struggle with Pleasure Activism Australia, knowing that i don't have what it takes to really make PAA a happenin' thang, is just silly. It's an inefficient use of my limited time and resources.

So i've decided to pull back from my involvement in various sexuality-related groups. Doing so will allow me to spend more time focusing on spirituality and magick, and on mathematics and programming - areas in which i know i either have talent or latent talent, and which don't necessarily require me to have and/or do the things on the above list. And i think i'll be a happier, more productive person for it.
 

Comments

[sacred-harlot.livejournal.com]

Ahhh the contentment of a free mind - once a good decision has been made, priceless! Good on ya Love!

Much Love and support with your decision,

Sacred Harlot xxx.

[flexibeast.livejournal.com]

Heh, thanks gorgeous! Love you! :-* >:D< :-X @};-

[ubiquity.livejournal.com]

I'm very impressed that you can let go of your attachment to something that was very important to you and make a wise decision about what to do. Way to go!

[flexibeast.livejournal.com]

Heh, thanks. :-) Sometimes i'm more of a pragmatist than people think. :-)

[haw-thorn.livejournal.com]

Cool! And maybe in pursuing magick & spirituality you will find unexpected ways to further your other aims!!

[flexibeast.livejournal.com]

Heh, maybe!

[weavingfire.livejournal.com]

It's always hard to make that decision, but when you do, it's always better in the end :-)

[flexibeast.livejournal.com]

Well, it really feels like a weight has lifted off my shoulders, so it does seem to be the correct decision . . . . :-)

[not-in-denial.livejournal.com]

I know the feeling, and go you for being able to make such a proactive decision! *hugs*

[flexibeast.livejournal.com]

Thanks. :-) *returns hugs*

[naked-wrat.livejournal.com]

I'm happy that you're feeling more positive about this move, I know it's been a hard decision for you. Love you *passionate huggles and kisses*

[flexibeast.livejournal.com]

Thanks, love you too gorgeous! *returns passionate hugs and kisses*

[superbbluewren.livejournal.com]

You know the grief I felt at realising that my political activities were no longer viable. I certainly empathise with your decision. However, as I move on new doors seem to be opening, faster even than I had anticipated. I hope that you will continue posting here or that we will keep in touch in other ways.

Spirituality is one area which I, too, wish to explore more deeply. It is an area that has been on hold while I worked on everything else. As I thought about where I want to be in the future it has loomed larger in importance.

Blessings!

[flexibeast.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

Yes, i must say i felt a lot of grief, for a while, knowing that i couldn't provide PAA with what it needed in order to grow . . . . but i've now pretty much moved past that. And as my latest entry indicates, i certainly intend to keep posting here, so i hope that can help us keep in touch too. :-)

Glad to hear that new doors are opening for you! When that happens to me after i've made a big decision, i usually take it as an indication that the decision i've made is the correct one. :-)