Hair

[flexibeast]

i've started to get really down of late about my facial hair - at least, the non-lower-lip-goatee portion of it. Being bigendered, i assumed that i would just be able to accept it as an unpleasant, but bearable, side-effect of being partly male. In recent times, though, i feel really disgusting and ugly on those days when i'm not clean-shaven: when i'm clean-shaven, i look in the mirror and think "Hey, you're not bad looking :-)"; when i'm not, i don't want to look in the mirror. The obvious solution is to simply shave every day, but unfortunately my skin simply can't handle that, and my hair doesn't grow enough in a day for me to do so anyway. So at best, i can shave my face once every four days or so, and in the meantime, i feel gross.

This probably sounds stupid, or pathetic, or both, but it's becoming an increasingly heavy psychological burden. And laser-based hair removal is way out of my price range. i don't know what to do.
 

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[winterkoninkje.livejournal.com]

:-((

Yeah, ocd sucks. Luckily I've gotten it under control as I've gotten older, and what bits remain are intermittent quirks rather than full-blown disorder.

[flexibeast.livejournal.com]

Oh yes, i'd forgotten you have OCD. But yeah, i'm in a similar position - i manage my own OCD better than i used to, such that, in my current situation, it has a fairly minimal impact on my daily life. Having said that, i'm also keenly aware that some of its components are still lurking, just waiting for situations which will give them a chance to regain their former influence . . . .