Surprising emotions

[flexibeast]

i had a bit of an unpleasant experience this morning, after reading the latest LJ entries by naiyah and velitu - more specifically, after reading about naiyah's journey back to hir¹ natural state. i unexpectedly started feeling really down; and it suddenly occured to me that it was because i was sad that i'd never have a cunt as well as a cock. i'm actually feeling quite embarrassed, because i'm very happy that naiyah is finally getting the chance to be hirself, instead of being who other people want hir to be; and i feel that my sadness is undermining that. :-(((

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1. Generally, i haven't been fussed about most sets of gender-neutral pronouns that i've come across, including the set that contains 'hir'; but after reading "hir" frequently in velitu's LJ, it's really starting to grow on me.

Comments

[flexibeast.livejournal.com]

Thanks for your understanding. i'm glad that you don't think my feelings are undermining you; but i still feel uncomfortable about them nonetheless . . . .

Sorry to hear about velitu's experience, too; is this a wall that either of you think can be surmounted?